Meet Melody:

My name is Melody and I'm 15 years old right now. I'll be 16 in October. I was born and raised in California. I'm from San Diego and I currently go to center city high school. It's an independent studies high school in Escondido.

Melody's Story
 

I was 14 when I found out I was pregnant. it was the end of August of 04. I was staying with my boyfriend because I wanted to finish my 9th grade year at the high school . I was going to so I stayed with him. His name is Joey.

My mom called me and asked me if there was any possible way I could be pregnant? I said "maybe." She was like, "OMG, I cant believe this, Melody....how could u be ..pregnant?" All I could say was, "I'm sorry."

She came to pick me up the next day and she took me in the bathroom and pulled out the test. I grabbed it by the little strip and my mom yelled at me and told me I couldn't touch that part. I took another test and it came out positive.

My mom was pissed off. I was so confused and I couldn't believe it. I was so upset that I just walked out of Joey's house with out even saying goodbye. When I was in the car my mom asked if I was ready to be a Mom. I honestly said I could get an abortion (even though I didn't really believe in them, but if you are in the situation, you're thoughts change.) I felt like I had to do what ever I can to get out of this situation. She also asked me when the last time I had a period was and I wasn't sure. I honestly couldn't remember, so I said maybe 2 missed periods.
 

I went home and called Joey and told him I was pregnant. He was really calm and didn't react in any way at all.  I told him he had 2 days to tell his mom  and if he didn't then my mom would tell her. He told her on the 2nd day. I came over the next day with my mom  and we had a little meeting with Joey's mom. She was crying and she was asking us what we were going to do. She said you guys are only 15. I was crying too. I didn't want to be pregnant. I didn't want to be a teen mom. Adoption never crossed my mind at all. I thought I would either have an abortion or have this baby and raise him.

 

Joey wanted me to have the abortion but he also said that he would support me in any way. .Joey's mother wanted strongly for me to have the abortion. We thought for a long time and thought that if I had an abortion nobody would have to ever know. So I decided I would get the abortion.

We set an appointment at planned parenthood for an abortion. My mom took me and I knew that I was at least 3 1/2 months already. I knew because I could a ball moving when I did the deed with Joey and I told him but we always jus kept going and never checked it out. When I got to planned parent hood, I had to get a sonogram and turned out I was a week shy of being 5 MONTHS! I guess I was in such denial that I totally ignored it. I didn't show barely at all. You'd just think that I gained a couple  of pounds. So I guess I could have got the abortion but I could have only gotten it on Monday and it was Friday and I would have to get more money. Both our family's would not be able to get more money.

I felt really bad because when my mom came in and they told her I was 5 months, she jus poured out tears and they didn't stop. I told Joey and he didn't even know what to say. He told me to stop crying, that he couldn't understand me. Joey's mom jus t couldn't handle it but she eventually got over it.

Nobody really knew. Not many friends actually knew until after I placed the baby for adoption.  I just couldn't help it. I was freaking 5months! I went home and I knew that I wasn't going through with the abortion. This baby was already a baby with hands feet eyes the whole thing. I couldn't do it, it would just haunt me forever.

My Mom told me that I should think about adoption. That thought had never even crossed my mind. My mom told me of this woman named Cindy wanted to adopt a baby if that was the choice I wanted to make.

Cindy is my Mom's AA sponsor and has been in my life for about 8 years. She is practically my moms mother since my grandmother passed away. My mom told me that Cindy and her husband were already thinking about adoption before they even knew that I was thinking of it too.

They had their house on the market for sale and they were going to move to Utah where they bought a house. Their house here sold, but the buyer pulled out at the last minute which made them stay longer in California. So they put their house back on the market and while they were selling again, we made the decision to have an open adoption. She felt that she wanted the baby to know he is adopted and that he should have his birth mother in his life. I told my friend Christy about my plans to place for adoption. I had  turned to her for comfort but she told me I could not do that. She told me I needed to tell Joey to get a job and I to keep the baby. She didn't make me feel too good.


While they were waiting for their house to sell a second time, I went into early labor and lived with them for 1 month because I was closer to the hospital and I had to be on complete bed rest. This gave us an opportunity to get to know each other more on an intimate level. I really like Cindy and john.

In October, their house sold and they moved to Utah. I then moved in with my uncle because he also lived really close to the hospital. I went into labor when the came back in December. I stayed with him until Cindy came back to California for the birth. I stayed with her and her sister in law and nothing happened. It was on the weekend that I woke up and Cindy had spent the night at my house  and so did Joey because I was 3 days away from my due date. and Cindy was ready to leave when I said I think I my water is  coming out. We all went to the hospital and it turns out that it was leaking so they admitted me to the hospital and they induced me because nothing was changing. Then I got the epidural .because I kept getting scared because everyone said that it was going to hurt so bad.

 

I gave birth to the most beautiful baby boy in the world. His name is Cameron Michael. He took their last name and they also picked his name. I wanted them to pick his name because I know that I would have more kids later and this would be Cindy's husband, John's only child. Cindy and John were able to be there when the baby was born.

Joey and my mom were also there.
 

I stayed in the hospital for 3 days. Cameron got to stay in my room with me and my mom also stayed with me.  The day I came out of the hospital was the day I signed the p papers, Dec 21, 2004. I saw him 2 weeks later before they left California.

 

The last time I saw Cameron was in the end of May 2005. My days have its ups and downs and sometimes I think very selfishly and wish I never placed Cameron for adoption and sometimes I try to forget about the pregnancy and the adoption all together. Then I wake up and look in the mirror and I'm  reminded from all the scars.

Many things have happened since he was born. .Joey recently came into a lot of money because a relative passed away and I thought if I could of just stuck it out we would of been fine. I could of kept him.

 

I know that we made the best decision for Cameron. He will have a happy life and I'm so glad he's happy. That's all Joey and I want.

Photos

    
Newborn Cameron

 
Happy Baby!

 

Melody and Cameron

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