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About Meredith:
I’m Meredith and I’m 21, and I’m from Louisiana but I live in Texas…I have taken
a break from college this semester, and I am studding criminal justice. Ashton’s
adoption is open, and I’m not married but I am with this really great guy named
Neil! And hopefully I can spend the rest of my life with him one day.. And I
have had no other children Ashton is my one and only! Ashton’s was placed at
birth on March 22, 2003... The best day for the both of us!
The day I found out that I was pregnant was July 16, 2002.… I just knew I was before because being 19 me and my best friend Jessica were always on the road to a dance, and we had bought some good drinks, to drink along the way to the dance…..Well my high school sweetheart of 5 years, (we had been broken up over a year) was there at the dance and he needed someone to drive him home cause he was intoxicated, so me the good person drives him home..
When I told the birthfather of Ashton that I was pregnant he immediately said lets get married.. And I am totally against getting married because of a baby, so I told him no…From that day on I was called every ugly word he could possibly say. But I moved on.. I thought to my self that I didn’t need him to help me at all…My best friend in the whole wide world Jessica was there when I found out I was pregnant, honestly she slapped me across my head for the first reaction, then we both cried! So I was thinking wow I’m gonna be a mommy, and I started thinking how am I gonna do this alone? I finally broke down and told my mom on December 8th that I was pregnant….that I can say didn’t go over to well. She was very mad at me and at her birthfather. She said things I don’t think I could ever repeat.. And my dad didn’t know that was pregnant, my sister was very excited that she was going to have a niece….
How I came to know about adoption is from Jessica, her parents wanted to adopt, but couldn’t. So I was thinking about it, thoughts running trough my head like, where are we gonna live, how am I gonna finish college, how am I going to support me and the baby? Reality kicked in, I knew I couldn’t, all I knew is that I loved her so much and I knew I couldn’t support her in all the ways that she needed… That is when I decided adoption, and this was in January 2003.
My views on adoption are wonderful! I’m so proud of my decision I made for Ashton! I wouldn’t take it back in the world, and I encourage young people as I to do the same, there are so many people in the United States that aren’t able to have children and people like me have a life time to have as many as we want.
I felt fine when I got home from the hospital, but when people looked at me and told me I looked great I felt good, but I was heart broken. But I have the best friends a person could ever have! Without them I don’t think I could have done it with out them! I dealt with the emotions, some what alone, I really never expressed myself to someone because I was always helping someone else, and never had time to deal with mine! But I do think that it has made me so much stronger to go on with my life living it day to day. Thinking and knowing is each day closer to the day I can look at Ashton and tell her how much I love her and I will always.
Above - Sweet Ashton
Ashton being silly
Ashton with her adoptive mom and dad
Meredith
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